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OCTOBER 30, 2007: RETROGRADE

I drank my own piss the other day. It was an accident! As you may know, I have a proclivity to pee in a bottle when I'm working. The bathroom at my studio is all the fuckin way down the hall, you need a key to get in, etc. It's a hassle. When I'm really engrossed in what I'm doing and I don't want to break my work flow just to piss, I just empty out into a poland spring bottle and get right back to work. I throw the bottle out when I leave for the night. (most of the time). Anyway, It was late, I was getting tired, and I noticed that there was some water left in my bottle, so I grabbed it and took a swing. WRONG! It was the piss bottle that just happened to have some very pale urine in it that I mistook for water. OOOPS! It didn't taste too bad, actually. Just like salt water. Drinking from your own well, they call it.
So, I haven't been so into astrology lately. I used to follow it a lot, but more recently, not so much. But I heard that Mercury is in retrograde now, and boy do I feel it. I'm not sure exactly what it means, but something like 3 times a year the Earth passes Mercury in its orbit and it has the appearance of Mercury going backwards. During this time it's almost impossible to start anything new. It just wont work. I have my new vinyl toy out, it started strong with some brisk sales and I was right in the middle of my marketing blitz when suddenly it just stopped. Shit went waaaay dead. A lot of shit went downwards. My video projects just slowed and all the action just got all droopy. I didn't sweat it. I bought a big bag of pot and just edited like crazy for a whole week. This new Baron Darkowl episode has way more special effects than any previous villain episode. I spent a whole week tweaking it and getting loaded. Riding out the astrological slowdown in an appropriate manner. I got a little too into though. Friday night I was at my girl's house cooking a big baked ziti. That takes like 2 hours. I like to drink when I cook, so I gulped down 5 beers in that time and that got me pretty tipsy. I sat down to eat, had like 12 bites and went running to the bathroom to hurl. I puked my brains out for like half an hour. that is such a rude move, filling the whole apartment with retching vomiting noises while people are in the other room trying to eat. Sorry.
But that fits the times. Lots of shit in this period represents going backwards. Back to being a fucked up drunk after I thought I beat that. Going back and asking moms for money. I thought I was past that. Not knowing where the next check is coming from. Thought those days were over. Retrograde is all about missed phone calls and miscommunication, unanswered questions and thwarted efforts, its about postponements and cancellations, its about lack of enthusiasm and sluggish rehearsals. Its about weak cash flow. Its about running your boat up on the reef. It all ends on Halloween. The planets go back to normal. I am gonna ride out these last two days as I have been. Woodshedding. There's no point in reaching out and making moves. I won't attempt to do any ambitious shit. I'm gonna sculpt, work on the website, and make storyboards. When Halloween comes I'm gonna exorcise my demons. I'm gonna get fucked up and let it all go. I'm gonna give the devil his day, then on NOV 1 it's back to business. I gotta move this toy. People need to get paid back. I got a big debt hole going now. That needs to get filled in. I need to take advantage of the last drops of waning warm daylight to film some good villain shit so I have lots of material to edit with over the winter. I have been struggling peoples. The money is getting thin. I find myself not eating so I can buy crazy glue and get some printing done. Some real old school art hero shit. Its kind of a wack look. I'm questioning my sanity. Is all this worth it? What am I doing with my life? I'm fucking going for it that what I'm doing. I'm keeping the faith even though at the moment it appears like its all a fool's errand, but it totally isn't! That's what its all about, believing even though the evidence suggests otherwise. You have to see what isn't there yet. All this is temporary. It's just the way things are on the material plane sometimes. It's just the stuff of life...

NOVEMBER 8, 2007: COSMIC LAXATIVE

Wow, when Mercury came out of retrograde, it was like taking a giant crap! All the blocked things just came busting out. Toys started selling off the hook suddenly, I pushed thru that Damm Bart Qee for Beijing and got my entry for the MF gallery show done. Those things have been on my desk for weeks. This giant subcutaneous pimple that had been there forever finally popped and I got my goddam Lowrider bike episode of the Villains shot. What other great things can happen next? How about a giant
check, universe, that would really rule! I'm like a new man ovah heah, Halloween sucked so bad, but then as soon as it ended I became really popular. I'm making new friends, calling people. Wow, I like life again. I have been really good about not getting too wasted every night. Limiting myself to two beers instead of six. It makes a huge difference in brain functioning, not to mention you don't vomit. The big news is the SUCKADELIC art show at the TOY-TOKYO showroom on December 7. that is gonna be huge! I have to get together the best of the best from every aspect of the Suck Universe into a dope cohesive presentation. That's a big job. I gotta get some funding for that. On top of it I need shoot the last outdoor scenes for the second season of ORIGINAL VILLAINS before it gets too cold. My Cali talent is gonna come to NYC and I need to get her on tape as well. Time is money. How can I pay these high-ass rents if I'm doing my passion projects? The FORCE knows how, so I'm gonna go with that. 2007 was dope and it looks like the last chapter of this lucky year is really gonna kill it. Nothing can stop me now....

DECEMBER 29, 2007: ART HERO

Well, that's it. So much for 2007. That was cool. It was a good year for SUCKADELIC. The SUCKLORD made a lot of big moves this time. Let's see, what happened? Oh yeah, I started a Company and made my first vinyl toy. **cherry popping sound** That was nice. People like it generally, some do not, and they have been vocal, but fuck 'em. I also became a film maker, doing the web video thing. Since we started we got up over 20 short movies up there this year. I'd say that was pretty good. I also attempted to become a rapper and I didn't fail utterly. Got up in front of hundreds of people and clutched the mic and didn't bomb. That's quite an accoplishment for a guy who is pushing 40. Proud of me. What else? Oh yeah, show at ToyTokyo, Vader project, etc etc. It's all up here. I don't need to recap. If fact, fuck this blog. I'm bored of it. I had an amazing year and I stayed true to myself and did whatever I wanted to do at the expense of everything else. (like earning a living.) But I don't have any regrets, except that now I'm broke and in Debt. I've been paying my rent late and generally fucking up financially. In fact I'm reading a Suze Orman book about Women and Money. It's really helpful. I plan to keep doing all this art shit, but I gotta grow up and get more responsible with my fucking money. I'm gonna get an IRA and all that grown man shit. Gotta dig myself out of this stupid hole. My rent is going up another $200 at my studio. My apartment is gonna go up. I owe taxes from last year. Gonna get hit again this year. Fuck fuck fuck. What the hell am I gonna do? Anyone wanna buy a toy?

PS: This gets my vote as most boring blog entry EVER! sorry.....