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NOVEMBER 8, 2009: CUT TO BLACK

I'm not gonna write this blog anymore. I used to do it all the time, then it got less and less frequent. Now I don't even really care. I'm not sure people read it and now I realize that maybe I don't need all this personal shit up there for any dick to know about. I'm changing this whole website in 2010. The sooner the better. I cleared a lot of stuff off my desk this year and put to bed things that have been in the works for a long time. By the end of 2009 all my creative and artistic obligations will be settled, except for one. That's what I'm gonna go full out on. I am going to be much more focused next year on just a few select things and let all the side shit slide. This website is too bloated and old fashioned. I'm gonna tear it all down and start from scratch. This journal will not be part of it. I will probably turn into some kind of twitter fag and keep my fucking thoughts short and stupid. If you are vaguely interested in reading all the shit I wrote here over the years, do it quick, cuz it's outta here.

I feel so good. I can see the next level that I have been striving towards and I am almost able to touch it. I need to knock out a few more fun projects and shows in the next month and a half, and then, Pause... I'm gonna do something different. Better, and different. I am also gonna change some lifestyle problems and not be such a flabby stoned drunk all the time. I gotta get in shape. I'm planning on doing big things with my life, and I need to feel good and have energy.

So fuck this blog. and Fuck this website. I'm outta here.

CUT TO BLACK

JUNE 30, 2009: THE MAZE

Sorry I haven't checked in with you for a while, blog. I was just waiting for things to settle down and complete themselves before I wrote, but they never did. I am still deep in the thick of things that I set off months ago and they are still not done. I had, over the last four months, some very major arcs that were begun way back when and are only now just coming to some conclusion. The major ones were as such: Curating and recruiting items and talent for the June 09 Pop Culture auction at CHRISTIE'S . This process started in January. Curating and recruiting artists to create custom artwork for a TOPPS STAR WARS trading card series. That process started in December. Producing a HUGE offering of bootleg figures, music, and video for BAND of the LOST to drop in time for the Land of the Lost movie. (Which Sucked Dick.) That idea was proposed in March. Then there was the whole obstacle of finding the money to pay taxes on all this big money I'm making and doing all my corporate returns with my accountant and dealing with all my personal tax stuff. I just got that all settled now. There was other stuff too, custom shows, like 5 of them. I got a new apprentice, who rocks by the way, but gets me mad stoned every day, adding to my confusion. It was all process and no completion.

Anyway what I'm getting at is that I can't get no relief. It used to be that life's activity would come in ebbs and flows, and go in cycles and shit, and when things were at a certain plateau of completion, then I would blog about it. Not so much now. Nothing is resolving. Or finally if some thing finishes, it's not a clean break. Shit lingers and has feedback echoes. Things are happening, but nothing seems to ever be done. Finally some major loose ends and dangling participles have tied themselves up. Yet there are so many new overlapping and interwoven threads tangling themselves at all times, I can't see any natural breaking point. This shit just goes on and on. and on. Its going to be like this for the rest of the year for sure. Comicon is coming up and of course I have over committed myself there as usual. I have a whole nother figure drop to get out before I leave. I need to submit a shit load of graphic art shit for an amazing-yet-top-secret project that is gonna fuck with heads big time. But its a huge project that can't suck and it all needs to be in next week. I agreed to do a commercial and figure and event for somebody, and what about Villains and Microsexuals? Those projects have been neglected for too long. Not to mention I have a custom show at APW in Sept which gives me shit-all time to prepare. Then I have to do the Topps sketch card show that I have been promising. probably in October. Then the new Sise' album is about to drop, gotta do a lot of shows behind that and we CAN'T SUCK! Then I am doing a major presentation at Metropolis in Amish town PA in Dec. There isn't going to be a break until possibly January. Then I have to promise myself that I'm gonna take a break, do the master cleanse, get a colonic and step back for a second. 2010 is going to be the same. I see this life style going for at least 2 more years, then I expect same type of break-thru, Some type of upgrade and movement to the next level. Until then I'm still gonna be a rat in the maze, chasing that cheese and trying to find a WAY OUT!

By the way. This blog is wack. It's not a real "Blog" at all. It's just a text document with stupid personal jibber jabber on it. and I rarely update it. This one-entry-a-season shit is lame.